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This is the only way I have to say what I need say at this time of night. I'm not sure Sam will ever talk to me again, but I'm going to say these things anyway.
I went shopping with Melissa today. I was all excited about seeing Sam in February. She got excited too, and we picked up a couple of things with taking his breath away in mind. I got new shoes, a new bra and a new blouse. I haven't had anything new like that in a long time. We were supposed to go see "Walk the Line" this afternoon, but we lost track of time in the mall. Melissa had to go to work, but she wanted to go to the movie after work. She got off @ 9:30, and the movie started @ 10. I loved the movie, but all I could think about was how much I missed Sam. Melissa decided that she wanted an orgasmic butterfly, so she asked if we could go to Lucky's to get one. Brad used to work there, and that's the only place we know of to get one. He doesn't work there anymore (thank god) and the bartender didn't know how to make one. I had a Tom Collins. She had something I've never heard of before. We had one drink, and then she brought me home. I walked into my worst nightmare. Sam dumped me. I don't know what happened to make him so upset, aside from not believing what I told him about where I was going and with whom. I'm woman enough to admit when I've done something wrong, but god damnit, I haven't done anything wrong. I was with who I said I was going to be with, where I said I was going to be, doing what I said we were going to be doing. I didn't lie and I'm not trying to play some kind of game. I love Sam with all my heart, and I want, more than anything, to build a new life with him. I'm ready and willing to leave my comfort zone, leave where I've called home all my life and start over with him. Instead, tonight my heart is breaking. I don't know what happened, and I don't understand what I've done wrong. This is fucking hell, and I want out of it.
Just on the off chance that you care: Sam, I love you. Whatever I did to upset you, I apologize. Please don't do this.
I went shopping with Melissa today. I was all excited about seeing Sam in February. She got excited too, and we picked up a couple of things with taking his breath away in mind. I got new shoes, a new bra and a new blouse. I haven't had anything new like that in a long time. We were supposed to go see "Walk the Line" this afternoon, but we lost track of time in the mall. Melissa had to go to work, but she wanted to go to the movie after work. She got off @ 9:30, and the movie started @ 10. I loved the movie, but all I could think about was how much I missed Sam. Melissa decided that she wanted an orgasmic butterfly, so she asked if we could go to Lucky's to get one. Brad used to work there, and that's the only place we know of to get one. He doesn't work there anymore (thank god) and the bartender didn't know how to make one. I had a Tom Collins. She had something I've never heard of before. We had one drink, and then she brought me home. I walked into my worst nightmare. Sam dumped me. I don't know what happened to make him so upset, aside from not believing what I told him about where I was going and with whom. I'm woman enough to admit when I've done something wrong, but god damnit, I haven't done anything wrong. I was with who I said I was going to be with, where I said I was going to be, doing what I said we were going to be doing. I didn't lie and I'm not trying to play some kind of game. I love Sam with all my heart, and I want, more than anything, to build a new life with him. I'm ready and willing to leave my comfort zone, leave where I've called home all my life and start over with him. Instead, tonight my heart is breaking. I don't know what happened, and I don't understand what I've done wrong. This is fucking hell, and I want out of it.
Just on the off chance that you care: Sam, I love you. Whatever I did to upset you, I apologize. Please don't do this.
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